email to my seetor

My first thought is always a selfish one, "Why does she do this to me?" My second thought is always along the lines of, "She has been through so much and has some how managed to not slit her wrists!" (Thats actually my version of a wierd compliment...)

These thoughts always happen when my sister sends her almost anniversarial annual link to a new blog or webpage that talks about events in her life starting with soft sweet memories and cute imagery that eventually turn into graphic descriptions of the separate but equally tragic deaths of her infant children... and then she moves onto talk about the ironic twist when she gets diagnosed with cancer... but she somehow mostly always manages to end these writings on a "happy" note... (if you want to share in this and see what I mean, here's the link (http://skwerally.livejournal.com/)

So this year when she sent me the link to her newest page - which I should not have read while at work at my new job, I called her (after I went and hid in the ladies room so I could have my good annual cry on her/my behalf... ) and we talked about her page and how she couldn't find other webpages with parents writings about the loss of children... and all of a sudden, a very unsubtle buzzer was being set off in my head. Since I was at work I told her I couldnt talk any more but had to send her an email in which I told her I had been getting "messages" to contact her ...

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Seestor,
so why would your sister know about a website called "hello from heaven"? I am convinced "someone" very recently (starting strongly last week) has been trying to tell me something... and its either Dad or cousin Mike or I am leaning towards thinking it might even be CJ or Dylan... because there has been alot of push to think about you too. I am convinced they got me to watch John Edwards show... and he mentioned the book his friend wrote "hello from heaven" about after death communications.

I think I can kinda hear someone trying to tell me something but I am blocking or something - and I HAVE been told previously by a psychic medium that I am Clairaudient (the ability to psychic hear clearly) but that I needed to develop the "skill." So, that all said... alot of these webpages/sites I have found while being "nudged" to do so have links to bereaved parent posted poems and writings... links below - and now that I have told you this, maybe the "nudging" will stop for a while but if not - I'll be sure to let you know... maybe I am getting the hints wrong... luv ya, S.

The website that I originally found many of these links from is really at this address http://www.after-death.com/

heres another good one http://www.bereavedparentsusa.org/ http://www.bereavedparentsusa.org/AP_Mothers.htm Bereaved "Parents of the USA (BP/USA) is a national non-profit self-help group that offers support, understanding, compassion and hope to bereaved parents, grandparents and siblings struggling to rebuild their lives after the death of their children, grandchildren or siblings."

another appears to be http://www.alivealone.org/ "Alive Alone is an organization for the education and charitable purposes to benefit bereaved parents, whose only child or all children are deceased, by providing a self-help network and publications to promote communication and healing, to assist in resolving their grief, and a means to reinvest their lives for a positive future."

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Second email to my Seestor:
big nudging? (either that, or my sinuses are acting up!) DOH! tell me what you thought about the pages and if they meant anything to you... smooches, S.
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FYI after that last email was sent, I think the "nudging" had stopped. But once my sinus infection completely clears up I will know for sure. LOL